Cancer Sucks. Answers Help.

Finally some concrete answers. 

Daddy has Follicular Non-Hodgkin’s B-Cell Lymphoma.  It’s in the bone of his upper left arm, his humerus.  He will begin chemotherapy soon.

I had a friend just ask me how I’m doing.  That’s a good question.  When I talk about Daddy having cancer, I feel torn between this need to be strong (because I know that God’s in control) and this feeling that if I could just start crying I wouldn’t stop, like a lump in my throat and waves of sadness.  Like right now, it’s a good thing I’m not eating anything because I wouldn’t be able to swallow it.

How do we reconcile our human emotions with the things we know that we know that we know about the Lord and His all-consuming power, love, sovereignty?  Is it ever okay to cry in fear of the unknown if I truly believe that God’s got this? 

I think yes…Ecclesiastes 3:4 says, “a time to weep and a time to laugh,a time to mourn and a time to dance”. 

 

2 thoughts on “Cancer Sucks. Answers Help.

  1. Oh I like having a name for that stupid cancer. I don’t like that it’s there, but at least there’s a name!
    And I also think it’s okay to cry about all this, even when we know that God’s got it ALL. I think he even weeps with us.

  2. That name sounds “official” but I agree with Becky … stupid cancer!! Your dad is a fighter and such a “giver.” I will still be praying.

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